Dark Premonition

You dont know me, yet you judge me

Who are you to tell me what to do?

Who are you to tell me who to be?, what to say?, or how to act?

My life doesnt revolve around you, nor will it ever

You dont love me, you just love the fact of being with me

You've trapped me in this mental asylum with no guide for a way out

This internal vortex has confined me within these depths

I am trapped, lost without hope

Where am I?

Am I dead?

I'm beginning to love this feeling

I am reborned, brainwashed, with no way back

Lost Spirit!

I'm lost, but my soul is frozen in time. It appears the more I pain, the more I'm happy

I've been used to pain all my life, I guess its the only thing that I enjoy

I'm not a psychopath neither am I crazy, I'm just lost, trapped in space, gazing at stars that don't

exist. Waiting for someone to wake me up from this dream. But no one does, so I continue to

hover and wonder what direction to wonder next. I walk the earth everyday seeing happy,

nothing but happy, and I continue to grow sad, no one is waking me up, fine then leave me alone!

Don't wake me up! Wait!, wait what? Whats that? whats what? Over there I see someone, looks

like a guy, he whispered in my ear, and told me i was dead.

Internal Phoenix

You've killed me, destroyed me, and left me for dead. I can't breath, I can't stand, I face this horrible dread. My heart beats no more, I'm trapped in this fiery place. Hopes thoughts and dreams, they all went to waste. Saturated from the thousand of tears I've cried, I extinguished the flames with one single eye. But darkness continues to linger in my soul, something so dark, it turns the whole world cold.With vision lost, I now cannot see, It appears I am dead, this cannot be. Breathless, lingering around lost in space, finally I've found the courage to see you face to face. Hearing your name ignites a flame in my heart, reborn from the ashes, with a soul still dark. I am reborn as a phoenix!

Inferno cage

Winds are warm, the skies are black,

I'm trapped in this vortex, with no way back,

My bones are on fire, my heart is ravaged,

You can't have my soul, you immortal savage

My brain is gone, my soul is lost

With the sound of screeching birds and bodies tossed

With the black hole sky, there's no chance for rain

I'm now one with fire, cause my body's numb with pain

Pain and I are as one, as my body overflow with rage

I'm now starting to get use to this adamant inferno cage

Javon and I

Javon is outspoken, I am shy

Javon is laughable, I am apathetic

Javon loves people, I like to be alone

Javon is romantic, I am destroyed

Javon knows who he is, I am lost

Who am I?

Dark Perception

Life... Let me tell you about life. This world is a cruel and dark place, where no one gets along and if they do it's an incentive. People always trying to hurt you. We live in a world filled with enemies. Everyone is dark, some people's dark side stronger than others. The only light is in my heart. I just want to be alone, a world created just for me, and no one else. Cause everytime you let someone in, sooner or later they try to hurt you, and I can't get hurt anymore. No family, no friends, nobody at all. If I could I would live only for myself, trust only myself, and love only myselkf. I don't care for anyone, it makes me stronger. You know what brung me through my darkest pain, not the people around me, but the mentality I have, the mentality that no one really cares or knows how I feel, Why do they pretend? It's because of their incentive. But the turth is inevitable, my heart amd my mind changes. I only want to be surrounded by myself, and all those who dares to try and hurt me, let them try and suffer the consequenses. Im always nice holding in what everyone says, think and does. I am constantly underestimated by the size of my container, people overestimated the size of their vessel and underestimating mine, well my patience is running thin, Im tire of waiting , I want to be free of this shell that's containing me me. This is my way, and for everyone who let people take advantage of them, and don't do anything, they are pathetic, and trapped in a never ending cycle of bullyingm and I wouldn't risk anything to save them. Nothing at all.

Tears of an angel

How dare I? Stupid me let someone like you into my heart, what is wrong with me? Why don't you want me? Aren't I good enough for you anymore? Im beginning to understand I am nothing more than a broken instrument, an instrument shattered to peices, no longer needed, so maybe I should just disappear, yea that's right, evaporate from life. That's who I am, I am nothing, nothing but a fool who is no longer good enough to exist in the world we live in. I want to erase my existense, will you be happen then? Will you love me then? What would make you care for me? I despise you, you despicable blood sucking leech, but at the same time, I will forever love you......Goodbye my love!

Memories Of a Painful Past

Every time I'm alone, I sit to think where you are, wondering if your happy and contented with the life you set out to live and the life you've cursed me with. I sit every night crying to myself engaged in this mental prison trapped in the vortex of my own mind. You've won, you've stole my heart, and left me for dead. Now my soul is lost lingering, wondering off into cold and dark places. I am forever haunted by the painful memories you've engraved into my soul, only making me need you more. I feel forever imprisoned by you, the breath to my lungs, the blood to my beating heart. I hate you so much, leaving me in this detrimental state. Someone help me, help me escape this labyrinth that cripples my veins, and crushes my lungs. No wait, don't save me! Thank you for this pain, I'm starting to like it, numbing my veins with hate, rage and anger. I love this feeling, I am contented, thank you.....now it's time for me to die with no pain.

Incapable of Understanding

How do we truly know what we want until we have it, then we realize what we had when we lost it. It seems to me, we have a lot of maturing to do. Incapable of understanding one another without the memory of pain lurking about within our minds crawling beneath our skin, and eating us alive, allowing us to mature.